Untitled 7

It’s the way you’ve got me figured out that annoys me so

I hate how you know my every move

My stealth faded like old swings in the park

I swear you rode me til I had no colour left

It’s the way I need you as a part of my life that irks me.

How the fuck did I end up like this?

You are the beat to my song

Without you I'm flat. Lifeless. Boring

It’s the way that I want you that hurts me

How did your touch end up being the key?

My rivers are tied up like balloon animals

POP ME DAMN YOU!!

It’s the way you control me that has me

I’m on my knees in awe of you

I have no rule if it is not yours

 

I am not if not without you

Colours

My love was missing him. He was far from me and I didn’t know how to reach him. I wanted to be within his bubble but the wild winds had me home alone cuddling my pillow again. Somewhere in between missing him and letting my imagination run away with me, I wrote a song (or something like that). Maybe someday I’ll record it and post it on YouTube. LOL.  Just maybe…

 

Colours – Vee Makaba

Colour me RED

And match me to your heartbeat

Colour me BEAUTIFUL

And become one with me

Colour me your MUSE

I’m the tool of your glory

Colour me INSANE

I wanna dance in your crazy

Colour me YELLOW

And I’ll shine when you need me

Colour me LIFE
Coz we’re growing like an oak tree
Colour me SAD
I’ll be your tears when you can’t cry
Colour me YOU
I’ll love you til the day that I die

Colour me LOVE

And you’ll have mine forever
Colour me LOVE
Coz you’ll have mine forever

 

Not sure it’s spectacular but it’s heartfelt. It’s love. It’s me. It’s colourful.

Corazón Partído

Went to sleep sad. Woke up sad. It's been like this for the past couple of weeks. I guess this is what it feels like to be heartbroken.

The sight of food makes me sick but I eat to fill the hole. And my drinking's out of control because I want to forget that right now, I'm so fucking sad and I hate everything.

The emotional toll of carrying on like I'm ok when my heart's in pieces is killing me slowly. Just thinking about it and my eyes start to water. I've been crying every day for the past two weeks. Every single day. My tear ducts are so tired.

There's a song by The INS & Miles Bonny called "J.Birly". Right now this song epitomises how I feel.

LYRICS:

I let you treat me bad

Just because I really love you

Just because I really love you

I don't think you mean to hurt me the way you do

So I let you take a whole lot of liberties

Real man should never ever do but

Just because I really love you x 4

 

Let you treat me bad

Let you make me sad

Oh little girl I don't think you mean

To hurt me the way that you do

So I let you take a whole lot of liberties

Just because I really love you x4

How much confusion do you think that one man can take

Tell me is a beautiful illusion

Holding a man in the palm of your hand

I just can't escape

The reality that lies in those lyrics makes me feel worse. That song just pulls at my heartstrings.

This love thing is so hard. I don't know where I'm going with it. So many things have happened. Some things I regret with my whole heart and soul. Some things I'll cherish forever.

Holding on to a memory thinking "Things could be like that again" was one the worst mistakes I made. Constantly trying to take things back to the day I fell in love and we were happy has caused me so much heartache. I feel defeated.

And now; because I'm out of ideas, my spirit is low and I'm really really hurt; I'm going to cry again. The tears aren't therapeutic but they need to be shed. I guess this is what they call heartbreak.

Well...

The truth in this picture!!

I kind of wish he was holding a heart though. These days, everyone's an intellectual. Not enough "feelers" out there.

We're living in a world that aint stable. People dont care about each other anymore. All we see is how good we are at hurting others. It's unfortunate there isnt an Earth 2.0 but even if there was, who's to say it wouldnt be as bad as Earth right now.

I wish he was holding a heart because it would show just how much compassion the human race lacks. It's so sad that our kids have to grow up surrounded by this rubbish.

I wish he as holding a heart so thta people might be inspired to be people again. That songs like  "we are the world" and "heal the world" mean something again but if so many people do not know how to use the beautiful organ that is the brain, what good are their hearts?